Silly-C

Happy Birthday...

2009-12-24T08:27:00.002+08:00

Hey You - Happy Birthday!!!! I wish we could have spent some time together but well... I am really very busy this period... Bad timing... =( Owe you first bah....

Boss - Happy Birthday!!! Yes, your birthday wish will come true!!! 我们可以的!! 大家都累了... 我们一起加油吧!!!

辛福...

2009-10-09T13:57:00.000+08:00

那感觉没了。。。

Somehow I felt it's never good enough...

Goodness!!!

2009-01-05T00:21:00.002+08:00

I realised it wasn't just Alex who thought Indifference is my boss..

Halo halo... Please... I don't like Ah Pek!!! (let alone a married Ah Pek!!)

Indifference bday is on 23rd December and my boss bday is on 24th!! So if my blog entry on "Happy Birthdaysss" is creating a confusion, please don't. Just 2 bday wishes to 2 dfferent person from me.

If you hear me mentioning my boss's name often, that's because my life is pretty much evolves around work, yes, it is sad but it is worse if you guys think I am seeing my boss... (Btw, I mentioned Beloved name often too... so please please... tolong tolong.. this time I really got a bit freaked out by what you guys could be thinking.. )

So this is it! Indifference is just someone I really like and want to let go. He is not my boss!!! Please guys!! Really don't want his rep to be tarnished nor mine.

New Blog Address...

2009-01-03T00:33:00.002+08:00

Decided that I want to have a new blog address for the 2009... Some entries are just not meant to be read by all...

Ask me for my new blog address, you know you are dear if I gave you and if I don't, well, you know... Heh...

Signing off...

#$%^$%^

2008-12-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

$%^#$%#$%#%^!!!

I pant just by picking up balls! Just 3 weeks without sports and I was grasping for air... Sighhh..

Honesty?! What's gonna happen?

2008-12-30T01:27:00.004+08:00

Left office at 6pm! I am so proud of myself!

Wanted to head home but detoured and met Indifference. Haven't talk to him like how we spoke to each other this evening. It's been awhile. We agreed to be honest with each other (for what really? I don't know) but I know he doesn't tell me the truth all the times. And when I tell him things, he will think I am lying. I think it makes him feel better.

We spoke about my birthday next year. We agreed to do something together. But seriously, I don' know if I should do this. Maybe spending time with my colleagues/friends will help me more. Not gonna be an easy decision to make.

I don't know what to tell Indiffernce. Thank you for your care/concern? Thank you for the hurt/confusion you bring me? I don't know. I only know I can't let you go... yet! (BUT I have to! I need to!)

We tried but failed... Whahahaha....

2008-12-27T01:19:00.005+08:00

3 of us were trying to get a picture with our pout looks. But we just can't sync it up...

Ok, we gave up...

Random...

2008-12-25T23:42:00.012+08:00

A group of us went out and someone started scribbling out chinese names...

Something really cute in N's car...

My favourite gift - So Cheerieeeeee!!

My favourite place this Christmas - what is Christmas without a Christmas Tree and has a homey feeling (alright, I am getting old!)

Guess what GA means..

This Christmas..

2008-12-25T22:12:00.013+08:00

The favourite question posed to me this Christmas is "Are you attached now?"

Not sure why so many friends are asking me this question. KS said I have a very "high taste". I am not sure. I don't even set a standard or type for the special someone. Just need both of us to "spark" things off.

The past few weeks had been bad but there are still some little moments that makes me smile.

Bear wishes me to have 48 hours a day instead of 24 hours... Hmmmm... =)

Last week, there's always a sight that greets me every morning whenever I reached office. Though I never asked but I think I know who did that to my Lebbit. I will take her down and put it back on my desk but it will just appears on the tree the next morning. My poor Lebbit!!

The Christmas Party in HQ went well!! I have to take this picture with the poster that PT did. Love his creativity!!

I am so loved. Look at the presents!!

Happy Birthday, Jesus..

2008-12-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

Thank You for Your Love... Amen!!!

Where is it?!?!

2008-12-24T02:29:00.002+08:00

Where is the Christmas mood? Where are the season joys? Me sense nuttin this year!!! Hate it!!! Me grouchy! But I am not the only one said this is the worst December ever! We are just way too swamped to feel anything now. The folks are not even going back to HQ for the Christmas Party. They are just gonna stay back to work. How sad!

It is raining now. I like the rain rattling sounds and the smell.

I hope I don't snooze at Wei's place tomorrow. All I want for Christmas is SLEEP! But I know I can't. Got to take that day to finish my unfinished tasks.
Arghhhhhhhh......

Happy Birthday!!!

2008-12-24T02:12:00.003+08:00

Dearest Indifference - Wishing you a Very Very Happy Birthday and may ALL your wishes come true.. Hope you like your little pressie. Sorry, really no time to get you something decent =( But I know you know I have put in effort to get this for you in this terrible time and I make effort to have dinner with you... You mean something to me ok!!! (Right! I can already hear some of you calling me weak!)

Dear Boss - Happy Happy Birthday!!

Impt..

2008-12-23T00:45:00.001+08:00

Hope everything goes well tomorrow...

Nothing to be complicating.. Simple is all I ask for...

Christmas is coming...

2008-12-23T00:32:00.003+08:00

And my greatest present is to sleep, sleep and get more sleep... It will be my BEST Christmas Present EVER!!!!

Thanks for the presents, people... Not sure if I will get a chance to get all you guys something... Actually really don't intend to buy presents but then again, I have a few already... Kinda feel obligated to buy but really no time...

okok... I am slurringggg... I need zzzzzz...

Simple...

2008-12-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

Left office with Beloved today. I realised we haven't been talking to each other for almost 2 weeks. Both of us are just so swamped at work. He was sharing with me his problems at work and advising me how to deal with a person at work.

Always like to talk to Beloved. Always know that I can trust him...

Love you!!

Amused...

2008-12-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

I am so burnt out. Wanted to come home and work but don't think I can do it. Decided to clean my email account as I have not been reading them for a month.

Then I came across this email from a vball team member. I shall share this because I find it amusing :

"Blah Blah Blah...

Thus, from now on, if you are not able to come for training, please go to the calendar (at least 3 days in advance) and put in comment that you can’t make it for that training with reason.

Blah Blah Blah...

This is for record control of the overall attendance of players for training as well as to reduce the SMS usage/trouble for the coordinators.

If your name does not appear in the calendar and you did not turn up for training, it will be consider, “Missing In Action”.

It is not very healthy for the team if you have too many “MIA” records.

(I will excuse XXXX & XXX as they seldom use computer; however they will SMS me if they can’t make it and I will logged in their name on behalf)"

I feel like I am back in school. Must take attendance, must give reason for not turning up.. I wonder what I should do to be "excused". =p Maybe next time I should raise my hand to ask for permission before I speak or go toilet.

Regardless, I must give the credits to the co-ordinators. Tough job but please treat us like adult. (ok, not all treat us like kids)...

Silly...

2008-12-17T01:30:00.004+08:00

Kinda regret going for ball today.

Still can't believe that sarcastic remark that "I" made.. Kinda created a stir among some of us. Can EQ improve? Or it will just stay at where it is? Ground zero?!?!?! That would be sad but I believe EQ can grow. I know someone from the office really didn't have EQ but somehow over the year, the person got better.

Anyway, J took the humble pie and sent all of us a sms to apologise. Poor gal but proud of you lah.. I may not be able to do that..

What keeps this team together? I can only find 2 reasons - the passion for this sports and the gals.

Again - it incident proves it AGAIN. Vocal people always get it bad.

Think I'm Stress...

2008-12-16T08:36:00.002+08:00

I dreamt about my work last night and the dream is exactly what I was planning to do at work today.

This is no good. I am tired.

Dream...

2008-12-12T06:10:00.002+08:00

I had a dream...

"Grrribit, Grrribit...."

"Hi, your name is KSilly and I am Allie Froggy. I am a happy frog."

Then "we" just happily hopping and Grrribiting away.

I thought that was happy dream but I soon woke up - maybe I got bored or I got irritated by the Grrrbiting.

Yeap. Dream doesn't make sense.

:)

2008-12-12T00:49:00.003+08:00

He is extremely nice to me today but I am so tired. I couldn't even have a decent conversation.

Thanks for the effort and the ride back home.

(But you are confusing me, you know...)

Very Special.. Indeed!

2008-12-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

I was feeling tired and edgy yesterday so I put "Silly wishes that she is special.." on my Facebok status... Then responses from a few friends..

1. "U are special, my dear girl!"

2. "I agree... both hands up and if u still doubt me.. i will raise both feet too."

3. "Haloo... big sister! Special is what we all sees inside YOU already! ;) Wish for some other things la...."

4. "Allow me to say this,"In God's eyes, all are special in different ways. That's why He uses us differently." Well... unless you want to have special powers & bla, bla, bla... Ha... "

Thanks people... I just need affirmation...

The One!!

2008-12-11T00:25:00.001+08:00

Was looking at the volleyball website and realised that I am the ONLY March baby in the team.

Then another reality hit me - I am THE OLDEST person in the team (guys team inclusive)...

Damn! Haaaa....

New Nick

2008-12-10T23:31:00.002+08:00

Beloved just nicknamed me - Remote Control! WAT?!?!?!?!?!

Actually it was quite funny thinking back. MOH was on the phone and asked me if Beloved was at work today. I said yes and he continued with the conversation, telling the other guy on line that he will speak to Beloved and get back to them.

I stood up and saw Beloved walking in front of me so I told him boss is looking for him. When MOH hung up the call, he was surprised to see Beloved. Beloved told him "You got a remote control what!"

Random-ness

2008-12-10T23:15:00.003+08:00

1. So busy that I hardly blog.

2. Am too efficient for my own good. So many last minute stunts posed to me and am still expected to deliver. Well, I did but I cheat abit this time.

3. Still half-hearted about keeping my hair. More and more people are saying I am looking very tired as the days go by. Maybe I am REALLY tired but I must say the hair does have some impact to the old look.

4. Not going to buy Christmas presents this year maybe except to those who really really really means alot to me.

5. I received my 1st Christmas present yesterday. Thanks!!

6. I feel fat these days. Maybe I'm really fat or maybe it's the water retention.

7. I'm packed for the festive seasons except the countdown. OOIIIIIIII......

8. I suck at volleyball. I'm so tired by the time I reached SPANS.

9. Perk of the week - the sales chap at Hugo Boss is damn cute! Oh, he's calling me tomorrow. =p

10. Don't mess with my mind. I know it's easy.

Thinking...

2008-12-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

Am thinking of changing my blog address.

Too many people in office have it. I can't bitch about the bosses / colleagues / client who are getting on my nerves!! People I'm not even close to can walk up to me and tell me about what I wrote... DUHHHHHH.....

Shall I do it?!?!?! But I like this nick..

Anyone has any suggestion????

TGIF!

2008-12-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

Yeah! It's Friday! Long weekend but I am packed all the nights...

Went for a spa just now. Damn shiokkkkk!! The knots on my back are all loosen now... Met him for a drink (something I badly needed this week). Sake never taste better! Nice place too, love the ambience.

All the massage, food and drink really loosen me up and I kinda "snooze" in the car ride back.. Everything just seems right - music in the background, driving along ECP and there is this serenity between us. HH and just enjoy the whole journey back.

This Week....

2008-12-04T23:57:00.004+08:00

One word - HELL...

I was (still am) so swamped!!! I was blanking out at Tuesday practice. So tired from work. I left office at 11.30pm on Sunday and I went back after the game.

I was having blurry visions these days. I went to the doc and he said I had overworked!! Best!! He gave me MC today to rest but guess what? I was in office before 8am!!!

I am so glad I have a long weekend this week... to catch up with work... okok... there are some leisure stuff on my programmes this weekend...

Went to the flyer today... 1 word - SUCK!! Thank God that I don't have to pay for it.

Alliance Team

2008-12-02T01:18:00.007+08:00

Love this group photo!! I had so much fun at the Sunday game!

My New Cubicle Name Tag!!

2008-12-02T00:58:00.004+08:00

I love it so much!!!

Decided...

2008-11-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

Decided to go back Wesley. Just need to be more discipline to make sure I will attend church on Saturday should the Frisbee game falls on the Sunday.

There's probably no frisbee in the next 3 weeks. Vball competition on Sunday, week after is stand chart run and so many of them are running so doubt it will happen. Week after next, I have to help Shaikh for his wedding so if the game is on Sunday, I don't think I will go.

So fat I will become! =p

Randomness

2008-11-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

Still refused to see last night's photos. Somehow felt upset with whatever happened last night.

Thanks Nigel. Thanks for just sending me to town just to catch up in your car.

Yong - it's been a loooong time since I speak to anyone on the phone more than 1 hour. But it's always nice to be in someone's comfort when I know I will be totally secured.

I need to rest. Why am I still having problems sleeping.

Lies...

2008-11-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

I probably have another blog entry with the same title. Sigh... I think the world is getting more complicating by the days. People, relationships, politics...

Again, I found out things that I didn't want to know. Though it's really none of my business but it's hard to come to term why people are no longer honest or why relationships these days are fragile. Marriage vows are no longer sacred?

Found out that a married friend was seeing other people outside the marriage. The people he/she is seeing are also married people. And I happened to know who "these people" are. It then dawns to me that "these people" had been trying to dig info regarding him/her. I felt used.

After the truth is out, I realised whatever crap about "I draw a line at married guys" is bulls***. Well, this is one of "these people". I mean don't say it if you don't mean it. And don't ask me if I still go church. Don't act as a saint when you are not behaving like one.

I'm pissed with all the lies that my "friends" had been saying. It's hard to trust people these days.

If you break my trust, it will take long (or never) get it back again.

Happy Birthday, Leng...

2008-11-22T06:51:00.000+08:00

Wishing you happy always!!!

Will I be missed?

2008-11-22T06:41:00.001+08:00

If I were to leave the company, will I be missed?

我不可以感情用事... Breatheeeeee....

Amen, Lord...

2008-11-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

Nothing can explain anything better than this video. Something I asked Him and the answer I always received.

I chanced upon this and I know this is not by chance.

(BTW, I am surprised to know there are MTV for praise songs)

Joke? Or Serious?

2008-11-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

Boss told me just now that times are bad and he doesn't have to think about my increament cos I won't be having any.

I did not answer him. Sighhhh...

Missing..

2008-11-20T01:00:00.003+08:00

Radio plays a song that he always sings... That triggers off some memories...

Hope you have been keeping well...

Shall I Present?

2008-11-20T00:55:00.002+08:00

I have never done presentation before. Beloved wants me to do it this time.

Am not sure. How? Whole darn project lehhhhh...

Love Them / Hate Them?!?!

2008-11-19T00:10:00.011+08:00

It's been a while since I saw Superman laughed so hard.

Depleted!!

2008-11-16T23:19:00.003+08:00

I am so busted!! I had 2 days of frisbee games and today I played every single matches. Don't even have the energy to talk at lunch and I think most of us got really drained out today.

TJ came to have lunch with us as he just finished his night shift but temptation got better of him and he end up playing with us in his jeans. Boy, that guy can still sprint in his jeans. Can't believe he didn't sleep last night. Good thing he is off today and doesn't need to see any patients. Otherwise, we will be worried. =p

Had a few good blocks today. Still trying to learn on the positioning. I really need to learn my throws properly, especially the long ones..

Wet Wet Week...

2008-11-15T15:33:00.004+08:00

How do you dry the umbrellas when you stake them on top of each other?

And they always block my passage way to the cabinet!!!

Live Right! Nov Event...

2008-11-15T15:17:00.005+08:00

It's tiring. 8 turned up today and I got Spens to guide us as well. Surprisingly, they played better than I had expected.

I was impressed with Jam for his release of the disc. So I said "Wow, where did you get all the wrist power from?" Guess what.. the guys all laugh. I then realised where that statement had led them to. Faintzzzz...

Thanks Ben for organising and all who turned up. :)

Numb...

2008-11-15T02:50:00.001+08:00

我麻木了吗?

Obviously I am affected by what I heard but yet I think I got used to it. My disappointment is not as great as before. What have I turned myself into?

3 Weddings in the 1st weekend of January...

2008-11-14T19:58:00.001+08:00

Must be a very good date!!!

Birthdays...

2008-11-12T23:45:00.003+08:00

There are so many birthdays to celebrate this month. I had already celebrated 4 and 2 more to come. And there are many others that I just sent my wishes. Nov is a birthday month!

For those who knows me well, I love birthdays! That is the ONLY day that belongs to you.

I can't wait for my own birthday to come (though the number is just going up but it is just a number... BLEAH....)

I want :

- inflatable birthday card
- flowers
- birthday cards
- more birthday cards

Nothing beats heartfelt wishes. I think people stopped giving each other birthday cards. I still kept cards that have lotsa wordings that shared their thoughts and well wishes. I will read them whenever I spring clean. Some cards never fail to warm my heart and some will even bring tears.

Something I know for sure. I won't have any more bouquets of flowers sent to office next year. I think I was spoilt this year - 3 bouquets!!

I hope to do something for myself on my next birthday. How How? Shall I get it?!?!?!

Randomness...

2008-11-12T01:16:00.003+08:00

Everything is so chaotic in the office today. Old already. Cannot take so many stunts thrown in my direction. I guess this is also where the job satisfaction comes from. To be able to still deliver despite all the stunts pulled on me.

Spoke to an ex-boss. It's nice to hear encouragement. Apart from encouragement, he said "the bosses can't do without you and they dunno what to do if they are without you.." At least I know he appreciates me when we worked together last time. He always complains that I worked too hard when we worked together. I was telling him one of my existing bosses just told me days back that everyone is not indispensable. Just painful in the beginning but they can be replaced. Somehow more inclined to that thought. Sigh....

Congrats, Boss! May your child stays happy as how you have named him.

Cannot understand some of the decision called by some people. It's weird. Choose to terminate a staff immediately and pay him an extra month when they already knew that was the plan to take a month back. It's weird how much some of us try to save and another team just spend it like water.

To Do or Not To Do?

2008-11-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

I don't think I can do this. I tried to physco myself into it but the thought itself is already painful.

Leaving?

2008-11-11T00:11:00.001+08:00

Ah boy may be leaving the company.

Another person whom I feel comfortable with is leaving... :(

What If...

2008-11-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

What If I didn't make a choice I made months ago?

How would things changed? Will I be better off? Or worse off?

Don't think I will know yeah. Even if I can turn back the clock, I think I will end up not sure what to do.

Thank You..

2008-11-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

Thank you for the 30 minutes we shared today.

梦想..

2008-11-09T19:19:00.001+08:00

人活着是为了一个梦想..
我的梦想 - 拥有爱情…
被疼, 被宠, 被爱...
这个梦想能圆吗?
我已经渐渐的放弃了…

Happy Birthday...

2008-11-09T18:51:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday, Babe...

Thanks for being there, boosting my morale when I am down. Thanks for always saying "I think you are better.."

Love you ALWAYSSSSSS....

Simple..

2008-11-09T18:43:00.003+08:00

她: 我爱你. 你爱我吗?
他: 爱.

Saw this on the MTV. Touched. It is that simple.

I'm GOOD!!

2008-11-06T19:29:00.004+08:00

I was kinda feeling stressed out the last few days as no matter how much I tried to clear the work, the work just keep didn't stop coming in.

And guess what!! I cleared more than half of my TO-DO list today!! Yeah..

Am I good???? OF COS!! Bleahhhhhh.....

Hoping...

2008-11-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

I hope he will make the right decision...

Stay sane, please...

Sick (Again)?!?!

2008-11-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

I have been having this pain in my belly button since Sunday. Weis says I should go see a doctor about it. I did.

Doc says I could be having appendicitis. I hope not.

Arghhhh....

2008-11-05T01:41:00.003+08:00

Feels like crying but I kept controlling it...

Then he has to call. Why? Not that he can come and comfort me.

And now I feel worse. And I cried.

Arghhhhhhhhh........

Sighhhh....

2008-11-05T00:46:00.003+08:00

Today is wrong.

My belly button still hurts. If I am still having the pains on Friday, I will then see the doctor.

Went for a meeting and just don't feel too good about the whole thing after.

Met the gals for drinks and everyone is getting married.

Not in the mood to work tonight but I have not prep for a meeting with the client tomorrow. :( But I seriously won't be working tonight.

I need to allow myself to have more threshold for errors.

I don't want to go vball tomorrow. Sorry HM. I hardly flew kite but really feeling edgy today. Tomorrow will be a day doing nothing after work (ie. if I manage to leave work early).

I don't think I am making sense in the above but %$#@#$%...

I'm feeling DAMN EDGY NOW..... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.........

Hits!

2008-11-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

Stop hitting on him... :(

Information Overload

2008-11-02T22:29:00.003+08:00

Went to a Frisbee Clinic today. It seems there's really alot of people who are playing this game seriously. Alright! I still suck but I don't intend to play this on a competitive level. Just a weekly game to let my heart beats faster.

The guys are thinking of playing in a league. I think I will continue to do what a do best - a great supporter, just go there and cheer them on. Go guys!!! :)

Anyway, today is quite fun but abit demoralise cos I can't get my techniques right. When I got a hook on my backhand, I tried the forehand. And when I used back my backhand, I can't do my backhand.

Then, there are theories. It's actually interesting but listening and actually delivering it on the field could be 2 different things. My friends and I were talking after the clinic and realised we did none of that when we played at our games.

OH! This gal that I was supposed to guard today, she moves so fast. I can hardly catch up. OK, I CAN'T catch up!! She's petite but she's not those thin type but when she runs, I can only say Wow!! Thinking back, I think I know why her friend told me to guard her cos "she is my friend so I better don't guard her."

I like this game! :)

Strap Up!!

2008-11-02T21:35:00.002+08:00

A friend went out partying on a Friday evening, took a cab home and the cab got into a BAD accident. I mean BAD!

His jaws and cheekbones are cracked and he lips were kinda torn... Ouch is an understatement.

The funny thing is after the accident, he can actually whipped out his mobile and take a picture of himself to see the state he is in. He then sent out to his close friends to tell them he got into an accident cos he had played enough tricks for people not to believe him.

Everyone response to his accident is "Drink and drive huh?" Swayyyyy lah.. Take cab also like that but he did say if he did strap up, it might not be this bad.

I am so strapping up next time!

I miss him...

2008-11-01T04:15:00.001+08:00

2nd Son, come back soon.... I miss your nonsense!!!!

NO FRISBEEE!!!!!

2008-11-01T03:30:00.003+08:00

I'm really getting hooked on to Frisbee now. I hope this passion will last but I can start feeling the impact on my knees. :(

This week no game cos we can't find enough people.. Why like that??? :(

There's a Frisbee clinic this Sunday.. Planning to go but find that place too far lahhhh... But I need to exercise. Only did it twice this week. :(

LY asked me to join her dragonboat team next year... Not sure if I should cos really dunno how busy will the project be. It is just a matter of time that I need to go back office on weekends.

是非地...

2008-10-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

The project site and even at HQ is really a 是非地.

Cannot believe some of the things I heard and things is I am not even interested to know what happened. At times, when people started to tell me things (another word is gossip) about others, I have slowly come to a point of just switching off sub-consciously. Half of it are probably not true and the other half is probably also blown out of proportion.

I thought we are busy in the project but guess there are always time for these "bonding" sessions.

Give Up Bah....

2008-10-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

For those who are trying to hook me up with Husband Material, piece of advise - give up bah...

HM and I were talking while making our way to the game. He said he had given up on relationship since last year and he had decided not to get involved again. I was surprised but I guess as long as he is happy with this decision, that's all it matters.

Still surprised with HM's decision. Just felt that he deserved someone as he is really such a nice person. He said - the right person in his life had left. I can hear a pin drops.

All the nice guys are either married (not all married guys are nice), gays or given up hope in relationship.

There - case closed.

Ironing...

2008-10-28T09:26:00.002+08:00

I realised how long I have not done that for someone else.

Not a bad feeling afterall...

Blogging...

2008-10-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

Blogging is silly if I can't blog what I want... Or asked to make amendments on my blog when I was already making effort to make my friends anonymous... Abbreviations can refer to alot of other people as well... Upset.

Gonna sleep over this...

Frisbee

2008-10-27T00:04:00.006+08:00

I had so much fun today. I survived through a proper Frisbee game (3 or 4 to be exact) and I realised I am not that unfit I thought I was. Something I should not do is not to play till dawn and go for the game.

Something to learn now is positioning. Somehow even when there's no one to guard me, my team mates can't really see me. But there's a few scores that we really using the strategy planned and it was just plain fun having the frisbee thrown out and thrown back to you again and threw it out and scored!!

Oh, 3 young boys turned up and they are those proper frisbee players who represent their school and also had their own team. I was so in awe when I see the various techniques they displayed. Heard they are conducting a frisbee clinic next week and our team is considering to attend.

Anyway, I am aching all over now. And I had bruises on my knees and look at the 4 blue-blacks on my right hand...

Oh - part of the fun people...

What is Champion Award?

2008-10-25T12:43:00.002+08:00

Someone asked, "Is it true that the person who received a Champion Award previously will not get the Champion Award again? Future recipients may not necessary do a better job than the previous receipients and the project doesn't seem to be awarding the award to the previous recipients again."

Set me thinking. I think that's quite true. Some of the older recpients are still alot more outstanding than the new ones. Some of the new recipients actually make some of us twitch our eyebrows when we heard their names. And there are alot of people who are definitely working their butts off and delivering but they don't get the award. This is where smart working and people who work hard and doesn't shine.

Well, who know what the bosses think? Guess they just want even distribution.

And yes, they also can't understand english. The title says CHAMPION AWARD. But they are giving away more than 1. Looks like it's not just us who can't make the decision.

情绪莫名的拉扯...

2008-10-25T02:00:00.004+08:00

我还爱你.. 有些爱只给到这, 真的痛了...
累...

說好的幸福呢?

2008-10-25T01:08:00.003+08:00

說好的幸福 - 真的幸福吗?

More and more people are playing the field. I think you guys know what I meant by that. The last person I would least expect is doing that too. Come on, if there are problems in your marriage, resolve that first and not using that as an excuse that you are unhappy at home and seek happiness elsewhere.

But then? What does it has to do with me? It's her life, not mine.

Thing is it has become so common these days that people no longer see it is wrong. It has become part of life, just like digging your nose. Sigh.. What happened to the vows people take when they got married?

However, I do know there are couples out there who only loves their partner and stay faithful. I'm looking for one that is just like that. However, all these "actions" are making me losing faith in finding one.

Just now during dinner, we saw an old man holding his wife's hand and leading her out of the cramped coffeeshop. So sweet! It is one of those rare moment when I feel so melted. This is when you know that's call LOVE.

Impression?

2008-10-25T01:03:00.002+08:00

Someone made a comment "maybe if you stay happy, you won't get sick so often?"

Do I send out the impression that I am always unhappy?

Nevermind, I don't care.

Take Care, Jay....

2008-10-25T00:51:00.006+08:00

Lend my Jay to C and I didn't take it back!!!!!

I miss Jay already, esp his "說好的幸福呢"??? C took my 幸福 away for this loooooong weekend.

PS. Jay's latest songs have KTV versions liao!!!! I'm ready!!!

Happy Hour...

2008-10-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

Alright!! Meeting done, work need to be done... and FAST!! Why am I not surprise that our first event was brought forward and again, there is not enough budget to do the event. Anyway, being the super efficient me and my team, I am sure we will deliver. But seriously, I do feel the stress to produce somethng by next week. I need to activate my team members FAST!

ACN Folks, ready for some drinks outside RCT office? It's coming!!!

Appointed!

2008-10-23T23:19:00.001+08:00

I'm appointed to be a wedding co-ordinator again...

But am glad to be of help to a great friend. :)

Congrats!!

Can't Sleep...

2008-10-23T03:12:00.004+08:00

I really slept too much since yesterday. Now I am so awake.

Want to reply to emails but worried that people say I workaholic. So I just end up typing the content and will only click send tomorrow. Not I think too much but this issue was brought up by my previous boss before. (I sent 62 emails today when I was on MC.. Goodness!)

Shall I climb KK again? But I am super unfit now.

Was msning with Indifference just now. Dunno why he chooses not to believe me despite I was telling the truth. Question - Why am I so bothered? The more he said it doesn't matter, the more bothered I am. Arghhh....

Hugzzz Pls

2008-10-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

Sick people need hugs...

Sick Episode...

2008-10-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

Was on leave yesterday.. Woke up, had breakkie with a friend, then do my nails.

Met Bre for lunch. She was craving for KFC and so we went. At 3pm, I'm starting to feel my gastric churning. Bre then suggested we go buy some medicine. By 4 plus, I was running to the toilet but I still can't throw out. By 6 plus, we decided to see the doctor after I threw up and LS-ing... (Bear helps the process of throwing up faster)...

Doc : What's the problem?
Me : Gastric, Vomitting, LS
Doc : Stop taking that medicine. It's the wrong type...
Me : Faintzzzzz

Diagnosis : Food Posioning / Gastric Flu

What a way to spend my annual leave...

Thanks to Jie, Bear, Bre for taking care of me...
Thanks to Weis for sending me all the way to my door..
Thanks to "Husband Material"'s concern who is always asking me if I'm getting any better.. I hope to go back to Frisbee and vball soon.

I'm going back office tomorrow. I hope the YDRs don't "gek" me tomorrow. It's really the last thing I want now.

Damn. My gastric is still churning now. :(

Jay Rocks!

2008-10-21T10:46:00.002+08:00

I love his new album. I think I will be hearing Kite-flyer, MOH and Indifference singing these songs really soon. But I must say MOH sings Jay's songs better than the rest...

Weis, please do not play his fast songs in your car that will give me headache or make my heart beat very fast. Actually is it his songs or your driving? Bleahhhh....

=p

Hmmmm.....

2008-10-21T10:25:00.002+08:00

I woke up edgy yesterday. Did a mass sms out to the office people including my boss.. I think I am nuts...

It's been awhile since Indifference can affect my mood until yesterday. I miss him.

Frisbee

2008-10-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

Fun! And I realised I am so unfit. Guess I hadn't been under the sun for a long time so I got a very bad headache after a game. Also, I didn't have enough sleep the night before.

There's so much thing to learn - how the game works, the various techniques. Ok, I suck for now but I'm sure I will improve.

I am going to keep this new game. People are nice, fun and very very friendly.

So the first thing to do now is to be fitter than before.

Screwed Up..

2008-10-19T23:53:00.004+08:00

It's silly / dumb / stupid...

A secret that I have been making conscious effort to keep it out, I actually spill the beans myself!!

To think that no one in my previous jobs knows about this and planning to keep it the same way in this company is out due to my "high"...

Though I know I can trust the people I told to but somehow I don't have that peace. I really don't want this to be out. Really... :( Guess this is something that I haven't speak to anyone for the longest time in my life.

L / C - if you read this, please please please help me keep this secret. This is something I really don't want this to go out. I know I'm a nag but this really means alot to me.

Secrets Part 2

2008-10-15T23:46:00.001+08:00

2 out of 3 are out. Left 1 more to go.

Happy Boss Day!

2008-10-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is International Boss Day.

Superman - thank you for making my life alot better since you rolled on.

MOH - you are tougher on me this year but I believed there must is a reason why. Thank you for your guidance, advice and (especially) patience. It means alot.

Mr N - haven't got chance to work closely with you this year but I will always remember the guidance you have shown me when we were working on the previous project.

The rest - some of us are supportive towards each other and some we probably hate each other's guts but I think we do learn one thing or another from each other.

For the record, none of my bosses have my blog address so if you think I am "pow-ing".. Wrong!

Happy Boss Day, Bosses!!

"Gossips"..

2008-10-13T23:53:00.003+08:00

Found it through the hard way again. The power of tongues. Good thing is that the impact is not big. It's scary! It really kind of shock me when someone told me what she heard. It's really amazing how things can be blown out of proportion. Anyway, lesson learnt, trust no one. Alright! I have been warned!

不要脸 was making me laugh all night. How can anyone be so thick-skinned? I thought my boss is the ultimate already. Wah, 不要脸 beats him to it.

Oktoberfest..

2008-10-12T22:35:00.004+08:00

It was a fun night.

My Mum..

2008-10-12T19:51:00.004+08:00

Mum is upset. Her uncle had passed away. He's my granduncle (I think) but I have never met him as he lives in China. My mum knew about his passing only today but he has passed on a week ago. So it was kind of a double blow for her.

My mum was brought up by her uncle till she was 9 years old before travelling to Singapore by sea. My grandparents came to Singapore when she was 2 years old. It was only when she was 9 before my grandparents decide to send for her. So when she arrived in Singapore, she has 4 new siblings whom she had never knew them till that day.

Being the eldest, Mum helps my grandmother to take care of the younger siblings. She always tells me how much she much she felt left-out as my grandmother is always closer to her other siblings as she watched them grow up. There was no bonding between mt grandmother and her. My grandmother was always tougher on her than the rest.

Mum did pretty decent in school but dropped out as the school fees seem too heavy for 5 children in the family. And well, that time, girls aren't meant to study that much. Mum started working and she passed every single cent to my grandmother at every month end - $80.

Mum is 60 this year already. I know I took her for granted, always thinking that she will be around when I am home. And thing between us hasn't been the same since SG and I broke up. Anyway, I have changed alot since that break up too.

Mum, please stay happy. I love you, you know that right?

I love my family.. Just that I never know how to tell you guys. I really do.

Zombie...

2008-10-09T02:22:00.003+08:00

I can't sleep again..

Sunday was still up at 4am.. Monday slept like a pig around 1am.. Tuesday still up at 3am... Wednesday? I am still up now, just got home... Think I can sleep tonight.

I know of some people who doesn't sleep well and doesn't have eye bags... Envy...

Yesterday was a bad day at work. Ok, it may not be the worse but one of those days when you realised no matter how hard you work, it's not worth it as your bosses will think you have not put in enough effort. A colleague of mine was scolded by her boss for some work which both she and I had worked on. We were totally baffled by the scoldings as we can't even understand why. Just that I am not in HQ so I don't feel the impact as much as hers. But I am pretty much affected. We were still trying to understand the whole issue today. :(

Anyway, our conscience are clear. We don't do things we shouldn't and we don't act smart. But we are not saying we don't make mistakes. As long as we are still humans, we make mistakes. I'm sure even the partners make mistakes.

Another chap left the company today. More to come.

Morton's, The Steakhouse

2008-10-06T00:45:00.006+08:00

After 2 visits, I have the same conclusion - I don't like that place nor the beef. :P Yes yes, they are supposed to be one of the best in Singapore but I don't enjoy it. And the place is like a school canteen. Noisyyyyy... Oooooo but I love the crab cake. Each at $40 and is smaller than a palm size. But it is GOOD!!!!

But well, the company that night is fun.

I loveee the desserts... Yummy!

What You Want?!?!

2008-10-05T16:20:00.003+08:00

I think they are confused - BIG TIME.

They offer childcare leave (6 days) for those who has children under 6 years old so that they can spend time to take care of their sick child or just plainly to spend time with their child.

Then they say we are not getting hitch. Do they know why? Cos we got to stay back and cover those married colleagues who has an additional week leave to spend time with their child!!!

I wonder if they know you need people to get married first (at least for this society and that the fact that the childcare leave does not apply to unwed mums) before the population in the country can grow.

oh wait, they are just pining hopes on the married couples who just don't want kids/more kids.

Silly.

How?

2008-10-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

How do you leave a job that gives you job satisfaction?

The World of Lies...

2008-10-04T13:08:00.005+08:00

We are living in the world of lies.

Friends lies, the person you love lies, you lie to the one who matters, to the one you love as well.

What happens to things being simple? Not that fidelity means anything much in the earlier eras but it definitely has gone worse than before. But I am not saying all people are straying in their relationship but I am sick and tired of seeing all these strayings. I see people getting hurt and come to a point of not able to shed a tear anymore. Some didn't choose to be in such relationship (but still hanging in it) whereas some stepped into it knowingly. For what reason? Maybe hoping that they can change the other person. SILLY!

Heard on the radio that if a person who has a history of cheating, more than 90% he/she will do it again. So if you think you are that special someone and will be the last one in his/her life, you are SO wrong!

There's anger / hurt / pain in my voice? Yes, I am.

I know some of you who read my blog are concerned about me and find it hard to ask me about what exactly is happening to me. I may not share as I find it hard to talk on this topic . Just ask me and if the timing is correct, I will spill every darn thing out.

Respect Please....

2008-10-02T00:40:00.002+08:00

I was taken aback on Monday when my assistant was presented with an award. Why wasn't I consulted? I mean only I will know what she can deliver and what she can't. I told myself before that I will nominate her for the award when she is ready but definitely not now. I am still "rescuing" her for things that she can't do. Must do what Joshie says "DO NOT switch to rescue mode just because your staff can't do it." but he contridicts himself lately by saying "we go into rescue mode for the good of the project". Ehhh... so what's what?

Anyway, it is not that I am petty for her receiving the award. It can be an encouragement. But I think I should be asked for feedback since she reports to me.

The guy who nominates her pulls me aside yesterday and apologise to me for what he had done. Gave a reason why she is nominate this time. I told him that I was not happy for what he had done but it is over and I am alright now. But I also told him that she is definitely not ready for one now. "Oh" is all what he says.

Respect is all I asked for. Don't pass me a responsiblity and yet overrides the authority.

心動.. 心痛...

2008-09-28T17:53:00.000+08:00

如果相识是一种缘份，
那分手是不是也是注定的呢？
人与人之间的一切，
都好像发生的很自然很简单。
可是却也不竟然。。。

Decided..

2008-09-28T02:57:00.001+08:00

I have decided to keep my hair long. How long? Dunno yet. I guess it depends on how much patience I have.

爱疯了...

2008-09-28T02:14:00.003+08:00

Was talking to "2nd son" during our cycling event today. As we talked, we realised that our conversation is kinda part of a song of 李聖傑 :

"妳想要的我卻不能夠給妳我全部
我能給的卻又不是妳想要擁有的"

Tough huh?? Sigh...

戴佩妮's 爱疯了tune was in my head the whole day today. Decided to come back and search for the lyrics. I felt a knife stabbed right through me as I read through the lyrics...

我那么的认真
去思考你对我的认真
过程是多么伤害人结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份
我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的选择
我想我疯了

Is this prompting from Him? Where is my self-worth?

Silly-C, when are you gonna wake up?

Change (again)...

2008-09-26T08:51:00.002+08:00

Changing boss again... I have heard news about one of my existing bosses helping out on another team sometimes back and I was wondering how he could be doing both jobs as the load on the new team will be heavy. So when this news came, I am not surprise. Good thing? My direct report remains. Phew...

Not sure if I am looking forward to her joining the team. Though my previous experience I find working with lady easier but after working with MOH, I think to-date, he is as good as my boss during the hospital days. But I have bad experience with lady bosses before too. We normally start off a few years good but the endings are bad (except HT of course. Still love her! Great boss! I actually left my previous job cos she was transferred out.)

I just did a count. This project, I have changed 6 bosses already. This number does not even include the leads.

We'll see what'll happen. He will protect me, I'm sure. Amen!

Beauty...

2008-09-23T01:22:00.002+08:00

It's not easy being a woman.

I realised my body is getting drier by the days and well, we all know, dry skin makes a woman looks older. So, I succumb to the new body wash advert on TV but I must say it feels really good. Well, I will find out in a month's time to see the effect. Yes yes, I know there's body moisturizer but you know... I'm quite lazy...

"Ork Bah Kak" says my dark circles are really getting quite bad. Leng also agree. Guess what? I think I have got used to them that I didn't even see that as a problem. Bre, Weis, Alex, T1 - really that bad huh? How How? Any secret recipes for lazy people?

For those who didn't know (which I think alot), I have really short eye lashes. Sometimes, they are even shorter than the guys. So, vanity sink in and I decided to try a eye lash growth serum. "BLINK BLINK"... I see improvement.. :D Soon, I will be able to wear mascara. This is when I start to believe maybe those 101 hair growth centres really works...

Last - I still feel I am fat / flabby / soft so it always amaze me when I see friends on facebook say I have a good body.. Whaahaha... I guess that is when they made the comparison against T1 or "Ork Bah Kak".... Bleahhhhhhh.... (Don't kill me... Whahahaha...)

Alex - yes, I am one of the many people who have more than 200+ friends on Facebook but I have to agree with you, some are really "hi / bye friends" and half really won't care if I live or die tomorrow. Alright alright, I'll try to get a life. Bleahhhh...

Trying...

2008-09-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

For those who knows I am struggling with Indifference, let me 自身自滅吧 cos I do not know what to do and you guys are probably bored of this already.

Missing...

2008-09-20T04:00:00.002+08:00

I miss the secured feelings that hadn't happened for a long time. Nights where we talk about almost anything under the stars. No pain, no hurt, no agenda...

Just talk..