Tireddd (again)....

Jialiat msned me to say I was errily quiet these days. hahaha... Yet he has to end it with "mind you, I am not encouraging you to speak more." whahaha....

So much workkkkkkk. No matter how much I tried to clear my things-to-do, I can never catch up with the new things-to-do that is coming in from emails and msn. I'm holding back my ECA already. Mentally drained now.

Office is getting more people in and yet colleagues are still so busy. My assistant is also too busy to help me now. :(

I'm in the grey area again. I asked my boss to sign my leave form. He approved but yet asked me to get another lead to sign the form. Interesting cos I was never informed that this lead is also my report. My timesheet is signed by another lead. Grey grey, turning black soon. 8 months still like this. Sighhhh.... This Friday, hopefully all will be cleared.

There's an position open in the office. I am tempted to volunteer myself, thinking it is an opportunity to grow. But I didn't in the end as I think they are looking for one with a higher education. Anyway, I was always walking up and down and they never offer me too. Maybe I m not good enough. I remembered I did make this request to my boss's boss and my boss before. But think they have forgotten that I would like to expand my scope.

Sigh.. Nevermind.. God will provide. I hope I will be able to discern God's providence and just leave when the opportunity strikes. So far, I've never have the peace of mind whenever the thoughts of leaving sinks in (yes, these thoughts had happened a few times already.)

I should pray for discernment. Amen!