Fight Fight Fight!!!!!

Had a fight with Beloved this evening. Received a call from him and hear him screaming on the other end. I didn't take that very well and acted very defensively. End up tearing in the car park of Dempsey, how glam can this be?!?!

All this because of ECA at work and definitely lots of miscommunications. Seriously, why do people show other people their MSN conversations or copy and paste the conversation. There's no pre or post story so may not even know where I am coming from. And it will be "What is YOUR problem?!?!?!" Yeah yeah, when is it not always my problem.

I am okay now but really couldn't understand the constant misunderstandings that I faced. All of us are so busy. I wasn't even given a chance to put my reasons across due to the office culture. People are so quick to brush me away cos they are busy but I have my constraints and work to clear as well. I can humble myself to learn things I do not know but do not take it as I have not have explored the various possibilities of getting work done in other alternatives if a specific way is not working well. When things went wrong, I'll get it directly from the bosses and they don't. They won't be penalised for these ECAs into their appraisal/review. I do!!!

I know some of the people on the project called me Superwoman. I don't really want to be one. Yes, so what if I am good at what I am doing but all these are at a sacrifice. So do not abuse me or put me down. (THIS IS A GENERAL STATEMENT, NOT TARGETING AT ANYONE OR ANY ISSUE). I am always tasked to take care of certain things but whenever I made a decision, I was questioned or it was refuted even before it was brought up to the management (AGAIN, GENERAL STATEMENT, NO ONE NOR INCIDENT IS TARGETED). Time had proven that my original suggestions work most of the time after their "improvised" decision failed. But this would have been after all the pains/arguements that I had to go through with them.

I thought of giving up this ECA but boss has asked me to hang on. Doing events is one of my strongest area so I can't believe I can screw this up.

Go, Silly-C!! I can do it!!