In Denial...

I'm tired. Don't really want to work now.

Everyday I'm fighting to meet the endless ridiculous deadlines. It even comes to a stage when my heart is beating so fast that I need to hold back and take a looooong breath.

Tried finding SG. Can't find him.

Still can't let go of what Indifference had told me. Can only conclude work is a damn bloody good distraction.

Bear - you will never make it as a player!! Trust me for that! And seriously, why do you even want to be one?!?!?!?!?!