Screwed up...

I stared at the blog entry for the last 15 minutes and not sure where to start.

I wondered how many people are reading my blog. Aren't they bored? It's all about work, volleyball and my screwed up r/s (if it is of any existence at all).

We partied till 5am last week. Don't asked where did the energy come from cos I don't. (And seriously, I think we have done too many karaoke sessions already). And it is also interesting that people always tell me that we shouldn't partied till so late but they felt "paisey" to tell my boss. And when I went up to him to tell him that we should leave, people are not leaving. Faintzzz... What do you guys want? I can only do that much.

I am still not sleeping well. The pain has returned and I have finished all my painkillers. Physical pains are making my emotions flying all over the place and it didn't help to know things that maybe I didn't want to know. Indifference is not making any effort to stop telling me things that I shouldn't know. I have even choose not to pick up his calls when he called. Maybe it is a good thing.

Indifference is one of those few people that I could have the best moments with and yet the worst will always be following closely behind. There are a few times that we could just be being with each other and not say a thing but yet feel so connected.

Beloved - thank you for always being so brutally honest with me and you can always make me laugh over my silly-ness.

Bear - I hope you are alright now. I can always have that jacket you know.. :P