爱疯了...

Was talking to "2nd son" during our cycling event today. As we talked, we realised that our conversation is kinda part of a song of 李聖傑 :

"妳想要的 我卻不能夠給妳我全部
我能給的 卻又不是妳想要擁有的"

Tough huh?? Sigh...

戴佩妮's 爱疯了tune was in my head the whole day today. Decided to come back and search for the lyrics. I felt a knife stabbed right through me as I read through the lyrics...

我那么的认真
去思考你对我的认真
过程是多么伤害人 结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份
我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的 选择
我想我 疯了

Is this prompting from Him? Where is my self-worth?

Silly-C, when are you gonna wake up?